“[Awaking to awareness] gives you everything that is beautiful, everything that is fragrant. Your existence is all-pervading. All the four Vedas do not know how to praise you.” ~ Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj
Friday, June 24, 2011
Q&A: A Kind of Knowing
Question: Hi, Rodney, I hope this message finds you well.
Rodney: Pretty good, thanks. It's 100F, with a 108F heat index right now in Columbia (South Carolina). But that's okay--I am inside!
Q: Things keep unfolding for me. Reading, listening to nondual talks, and reflecting about Truth are settling in as my main activities when I am away from work. I really feel like this has to be sorted out, to be seen, and I find myself having a natural dedication that I have never experienced before. While I am much less intense about these explorations, I also seem to have more resilience, if that makes any sense.
Rodney: It does indeed. When your nondual reflections reach that balance of being earnest but less emotional, you are at a very "good" place. You are naturally seeing things with unaccustomed depth and clarity. There is a direction and dedication there that have a drive of their own. You don't have to do a thing to re-energize them or to help them along.
Q: Right. Lately I have this sense that everything--including my body and my thoughts--is appearing "somewhere," that some sort of canvas is allowing experiences to be painted. It's a very subtle recognition, a kind of knowing. It can't be observed or grasped in any way; but sometimes it can allowed, and its presence seems more obvious.
Rodney: And that "appearing somewhere" is nothing other than awareness, which is a wondrous canvas indeed. But be careful about "allowing" things to happen. This could lead to your thinking that there is this defined "you" parceling out presence, which isn't the case, of course. Simply know that your insights and subtle recognitions are occurring. Then take it one non-step further and see that these lovely clarifications are flourishing in an existingpresence of felt-spaciousness, a spaciousness which--because of its nearness (not distance or difficulty)--is so easily overlooked. An apt analogy to all this is that you are trying to master the mechanics of vision, when your eyes are already seeing. Or you are attempting to master the intricacies of mindfulness, when you are already the witness or the knower. So the question becomes not how do I attain--and then maintain--some special state, but what is it that is directly before me that I am not seeing? And the question, in itself, is a superbly absorbing one because, once again, we are talking about something that is directly within and before you. Truly, awareness couldn't be any nearer than it is right now.
Q: Suddenly, I have this urge to be very, very still.
Rodney: Or more precisely, stillness is happening, and you are that stillness. Do you see the subtle but very important difference? In the first, "you" is still given a lead role in the experience. In the second, all is presence.
Q: And that stillness feels--for a short while anyway--so transparent and luminous. At these times, like you said in your last post, it becomes obvious that "you don't have to halt your thinking to discover truth."
Rodney: Precisely, the halting simply happens. It's more of a noticing, rather than a doing. And once you actually discern awareness, it doesn't come and go. What you are experiencing sounds more like an intuiting of awareness, which can indeed be illuminating but short-lived. It's more like a breath of fresh air, whereas presence is pure, perpetual oxygen.
Q: Well, it is becoming clearer and clearer to me that I can't do anything to bring this about. My thinking is useless; it's when it goes to the background that the beauty of life reveals itself.
Rodney: Thoughts and feelings can be beautiful too. It's just that they arise from luminosity itself. The thoughts and sentiments are temporary, whereas presence is everlasting. But your perceptions show that your clarity is resolving itself on its own impetus. Be sure to fully go along with any pausings, deep or small, during your introspections. For it is within those cessations that presence can be readily perceived. You don't bring it about--you just see that it has never been missing. It can (but not necessarily) be a mild and beautiful shock at first. Then it quickly becomes the most natural of things.
Q: Sometimes I feel a great joy, which brings me close to tears. It comes and goes, and doesn't seem to be related to anything particular.
Rodney: I completely understand. Fully allow any tears to emerge. The body and heart are expressing themselves, and they have a wisdom too--eons old.
Q: I continue to enjoy your blog very much. The posts about your trip to Edisto were very good indeed. Thank you for sharing that lovely trip with us.
Rodney: You are certainly welcomed. And feel free to keep in touch.
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